Christmas just passed and what does it mean? The year is coming to and end in just a few days time. I just feel that every year is passing by quicker year by year. Year 2011 has been a rather uneventful year for me. Lots of things happened in this year. Of course I’m taking into account the negative issues like the handphone line debt, losing my ipod touch, malaysian army issue and what not. But, bad times are not always there. I’m glad to have travelled to a new country which is Indonesia, Bali with my usual travel mates before enlistment. I also made many new friends from different places/events which I worked for before enlisting, widening my social circle when I still can. Not forgetting my buddies I made in army whom I went through deep shit with…those memories will be etched in our minds when we pass out too. 

During my army days when we rush to wait, wait to rush, I usually will doze off or start thinking about my CV life. I tend to miss my poly days a lot, and I mean A LOT. Those were the carefree days which I can only reminisce as we can’t go back. 

Army really changes our lives, deprives us of the freedom we used to have and perhaps, drifts us away from our friends. Oh well, it’s a stage and every Singaporean son is conscripted to go through this 2 years. I definitely have matured and grown mentally and physically. I cherish my family even more and treasure the times I spend with my friends. They might not know, but they are my motivation for me to hang on and survive the tough times.

I’m looking forward to the new year, to a brand new start as I will be posted to a new vocation, hopefully command school after I pass out from BMT. I wish everyone a great 2012 ahead, and a happy ending for the year 2011. 

Merry X’mas and a Happy New Year.

Lost 3-4 kg ever since I enlisted. This should give you an idea on how tough the training is inside. I made quite alot of new friends inside, be it my bunk mates or platoon mates. It can be fun even if the whole platoon gets punished together. My commanders are also really friendly people who always talk cock with us, but when it comes to business, they can be very serious too. It’s all about regimentation and discipline if you were to describe military lifestyle, from point to point you have to either double up yr pace or you march. I think the only time that we (recruits) love is our admin time at night, which means its our free time usually after dinner if there’s no night trainings. We would talk cock in bunk, play monopoly deal, eat some snacks, use our laptops and talk on phone.

Now I really treasure my weekends alot because that’s the only time I can do my own stuff, rest, spend time with family and friends and totally relax myself as a civilian. 3 more months to P.O.P. Time please pass quickly! Can’t wait for my turn to POP after watching some of my friends’ yesterday. I could really feel the happiness for them.

Back to Tekong, in a few hours time. Catch me again, soon.

To be honest, initially, I’m pretty depressed that I have to enlist 2 months earlier. I can do so much in this period of time, say going for another overseas trip? But when everything was decided and nothing can change it, I heard people saying the good side of going in earlier. 2 months to train me physically and mentally, so I could be in my best shape for BMT and already know how the system in army works. This point changed my initial point of view. Haha, or you can say it’s self-consolation…

Advice from friends is to ask me to control my temper and just follow instructions. I’ll keep that in mind. “Act blur, live longer.” I’m gonna bring a book in to camp to read. Like WHAT?! I never completed a book other than those Enid Blyton hard cover books. I guess that’s a way to kill time inside. I just watched one episode of Every Singaporean Son. Can totally relate to the video content…feeling all so depressed now.

I guess I made the best out of my last few weeks of freedom by catching up with some friends that I never met for some time. Also, not to forget a travel trip to Bali. One thing I’d definitely miss in this 2 years is travelling, UNLESS we really can execute the plan of going overseas after P.O.P. Haven’t enlist, already looking forward to booking out and POP hahaha. By November, all of us would be in army already! (Excluding Lawrence and Louis) I need more things to look forward to man, I don’t even know who can I call every night.

Last but not least, I hope my bunk mates are fun peeps and my buddy and I can take care of each other!
Go in a young boy, come out a real man. 

Even I can’t take it lying down anymore. The more I think, the more I feel fed up.

Turning to friends only when your partner isn’t by your side or not on talking terms? And once it’s all back to normal or your desired life, totally no contact at all. Maybe once or twice, you can be forgiven. BUT, once it becomes a habit, that’s it. That’s not the way to treat your friends or maintaining a friendship. You don’t just dump us aside when you don’t need us at the moment. I’m getting sick of such treatments too, we are humans not your back-up plan.

Sorry, but this is exactly how I’m/we’re feeling.

If you can’t strike a balance between relationship and friendship, learn it the hard way then.
Just note that, not every time when you need friends by your side, they will still be there for you. Humans all want to feel important.

Alright…been feeling pretty disturbed by some fb statuses/tweets recently. They make me feel like this friend of mine is becoming someone I don’t really understand anymore. And the fact that I will feel disturbed, means this friend definitely is of importance to me. I didn’t really approach or try to talk to him, maybe I will, soon enough.

Don’t do unto others what you don’t want them to do unto you.

Another friend of mine was complaining and 哭得要死不活 after her breakup and saying the ex-bf is a jerk and cheated on her blahblahblah. I tried to comfort her a few times when she complained. But now I see her like enjoying herself with another guy, uploading pics of her and the guy on FB and tweeting about him. I’m like whathefuck? You were just crying your heart out few days ago and now you seem like a totally changed person. It’s amazing how much a person can change in such a short period of time.

Anyway, I think I should stop sparing a thought for other people. It just doesn’t pay to be kind. Like when your kindness or kind actions are unappreciated. I always feel guilty easily or feel bad saying “No”. Make my life so miserable to make others happier, for what?

Okay, the above are just some thoughts that I had. I was typing all these in the dark, sitting on the floor. Getting a bit restless already. Goodnight.

Been working for the Robinsons Expo event for 9 days already, and just a few more days to go till the end of this event. Made quite a lot of new friends, most of them are around the same age so we are all awaiting enlistment. Crappy as they are, we manage to click pretty well without any conflicts. Hahaha, I’ll probably miss their jokes, stealing the food items for our own consumption, pushing trolleys and even sorting out lingerie and guessing the sizes LOL!

The only negative memory is losing my beloved iPod Touch. And the more I look at the staff who was tending the counter where I lost it, the more I suspect them… But fuck, I need concrete evidence against them.

Yet another expensive lesson lor. My lessons all very expensive one leh why uh. :/

K la dont know what to write liao kthxbai.

Maybe I should list out some of the events I can remember…

1.  I was injured and nearly died while playing ATV in my graduation trip in Phuket.
2.  I got tonsillitis for the very first time in my life. (I consider it unlucky)
3.  I got into heavy debt for the iPhone line i signed last year.
4.  My army issue with the Malaysian side
5.  Hurt my tailbone while playing basketball weeks ago and it still hurts now
6.  I lost my iPod Touch today
7.  Even my watch died on me after I lost my iTouch

When negative events happen, they come one after another. It’s like you fell into the well, and people throw rocks down into it. Particularly after the police left today, I checked my watch only to notice it’s not ticking. It was like adding insult to my injury, spreading salt on my wound. I totally lost the mood to work.

My friends would probably know that I took about a year to finally buy the iTouch, and when I did I was freaking happy, probably the happiest man on earth at that point in time. Who knew I would lose it just after 7 months.

I’m really fuckin pissed with myself. Why can’t I be more conscious of where I place my valuables? Why was I so careless? After losing my wallet with my IC in it twice in 3 years and my handphone once,  I still fail to take good care of my own belongings.

I fucked myself up.

WTF? Why you keep losing stuffffffffffffs? I think you’ve got to lend me everything i safe keep for you. – Calvin

WTF? U powerful man. How do u take care of your things one. – Deon

You want to test headphone don’t know how to test after work or during break ah? Why do it during work? Everytime dont know how to take care of your own belongings. – My brother

These were some comments that hit right into my heart man. But what they said were true, they hit the nail, the bull’s eye.

Friends should probably stay away from me, just in case you guys get the bad luck from me.
Need to head to the temple really soon.

I know shit happens, but why, always me?

Been long since I headed to sing K…everyone’s either schooling or working. How to find time?

I fell when I was pushed in the air when playing basketball and hurt my neck and tailbone recently. Hope it’s just minor injuries and won’t affect me in future.

Another random thought: The real loneliness that you feel is not when you’re alone, it is when there are so many people/friends around you but yet you feel the loneliness/emptiness inside you.

I’ve felt that way every now and then. That feeling, like as if no one’s gonna be there to hear your silent cries deep within. It’s…scary. Alright ignore that.

Things to look forward to/work hard for:

1) Transformers later!

2) KweeMingQiao’s birthday Chalet

3) Bali Trip

4) Pass NAPFA

5) Hopefully another short getaway trip before NS

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Sometimes, I really hate the fact that I’m a Pisces. Too emotional for my own good, and a matter of fact, it’s not exactly within my control.

My mum scared me saying “Your tonsillitis come back already is it? Never go check ar?” Lol then i straightaway find my torch light shine into my mouth, heng don’t have. I don’t want it to come back either! :/

God bless me recover by tonight please!