Rock-bottom

Exactly how the title describes the stage my life is at now, perhaps.

So many unsolved issues on hand, including my National Service in Malaysia, my application for Singapore Citizenship and now another problem that is giving me headache and causing me not to sleep peacefully.

And what is that?
Okay maybe this article will help in your understanding.
http://www.asiaone.com/Digital/News/Story/A1Story20090519-142510.html
And here I am, in a debt, considerably heavy debt as to how I define heavy.
I’m obviously scammed, together with my friend.
In addition, it’s uncertain as to whether we can get the money back from the “middleman” who got us to sign these phone lines.

Oh well, even the police told us that it was  a mutual agreement both parties had, and told us we may get into more trouble if we were to really lodge a police report. Because we are also considered playing with the telco’s system.
So the legal advice from them was, to pay the outstanding bills.

A very, very expensive lesson learnt.
There’s no free lunch in the world.
Why did I commit this mistake?
It all boils down to greediness, or just pure stupidity.
I can’t  retort whatever you guys may comment about me regarding this issue because I know it’s all the right adjectives that will be used on me.

P.S  If you are reading this, please do not let my family know about this because I’m not intending to let them know at all. Thankyouverymuch.  

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你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为 只是我以为

我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁

我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

Now I’m lost.

Even words can’t describe

My worries were not unfounded. My intuitions were accurate.
I really wish I didn’t have to appear there. My mood took for a 180 degree change.
I’ve so many doubts that I want to clarify, but is it appropriate for me to even ask?
I’m not even a somebody to you.
What hurts the most is, you contradict what you said some time back.

Heart went cold.

In my shoes

我会不说不想说  怕说了也没有用

Untitled

Ever wondered why some stars are so bright and some are not visible?
I don’t know about the bright ones.
But, those non-visible ones, they are actually always there, but you might not be aware of their presence.

HOLIDAYS

Finally!

Exams are over and the long awaited holidays are here! Woohoo! Went to play street soccer with the the guys after the exam. It wasn’t a good day for us, especially Mr Martin, who joined us spontaneously too. He injured himself and it was pretty serious, much worse than what we expected. It was an accident, no one expected it nor wanted it to happen. Shit happens but why today? =/

We went to eat at some tze char stall in Holland V after bathing. It was damn filling and the food was nice. $165 for 9 people in total. It’s quite worth it actually. And we managed to catch the last trains from Dover and Jurong East, lucky us.

I really hope I can make the fullest out of this holidays. So many things i want to do, but was restricted by school work. Hence, I’m gonna play real hard! :D

Why do I always get the feeling I’m redundant? The feeling isn’t good at all, don’t you understand?
Maybe, it’s just not that important.

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