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Thoughts

Say Hi to my new blog skin! Decided to change for the fun of it.

Alright…been feeling pretty disturbed by some fb statuses/tweets recently. They make me feel like this friend of mine is becoming someone I don’t really understand anymore. And the fact that I will feel disturbed, means this friend definitely is of importance to me. I didn’t really approach or try to talk to him, maybe I will, soon enough.

Don’t do unto others what you don’t want them to do unto you.

 

Another friend of mine was complaining and 哭得要死不活 after her breakup and saying the ex-bf is a jerk and cheated on her blahblahblah. I tried to comfort her a few times when she complained. But now I see her like enjoying herself with another guy, uploading pics of her and the guy on FB and tweeting about him. I’m like whathefuck? You were just crying your heart out few days ago and now you seem like a totally changed person. It’s amazing how much a person can change in such a short period of time.

Anyway, I think I should stop sparing a thought for other people. It just doesn’t pay to be kind. Like when your kindness or kind actions are unappreciated. I always feel guilty easily or feel bad saying “No”. Make my life so miserable to make others happier, for what?

Okay, the above are just some thoughts that I had. I was typing all these in the dark, sitting on the floor. Getting a bit restless already. Goodnight.

Rotten Luck

Year 2011 isn’t a good year for me so far. Many many unlucky things have happened to me.

Maybe I should list out some of the events I can remember…

1.  I was injured and nearly died while playing ATV in my graduation trip in Phuket.
2.  I got tonsillitis for the very first time in my life. (I consider it unlucky)
3.  I got into heavy debt for the iPhone line i signed last year.
4.  My army issue with the Malaysian side
5.  Hurt my tailbone while playing basketball weeks ago and it still hurts now
6.  I lost my iPod Touch today
7.  Even my watch died on me after I lost my iTouch

When negative events happen, they come one after another. It’s like you fell into the well, and people throw rocks down into it. Particularly after the police left today, I checked my watch only to notice it’s not ticking. It was like adding insult to my injury, spreading salt on my wound. I totally lost the mood to work.

My friends would probably know that I took about a year to finally buy the iTouch, and when I did I was freaking happy, probably the happiest man on earth at that point in time. Who knew I would lose it just after 7 months.

I’m really fuckin pissed with myself. Why can’t I be more conscious of where I place my valuables? Why was I so careless? After losing my wallet with my IC in it twice in 3 years and my handphone once,  I still fail to take good care of my own belongings.

I fucked myself up.

WTF? Why you keep losing stuffffffffffffs? I think you’ve got to lend me everything i safe keep for you. – Calvin

WTF? U powerful man. How do u take care of your things one. – Deon

You want to test headphone don’t know how to test after work or during break ah? Why do it during work? Everytime dont know how to take care of your own belongings. – My brother

These were some comments that hit right into my heart man. But what they said were true, they hit the nail, the bull’s eye.

Friends should probably stay away from me, just in case you guys get the bad luck from me.
Need to head to the temple really soon.

I know shit happens, but why, always me?

痛

这是我有史以来最痛苦的一次。不是普通的喉咙痛，是扁条腺炎。吃完了医生给的药还是没好，吞口水都很痛。这不仅影响我的生活，也造成一些工作上的困扰，是我的情绪变得容易暴躁。都不知道还要多久才会好，我一天就喝了两公升的水，都快水肿了。好想把他给切掉，一了百了。

Hopes dashed?

I hope not. 
Why is it so hard to make up your mind whether to go for the trip?
It only depends how bad you want it, unless its some situations that really restrict your freedom.
Job hunting could have started earlier right? Why take your own sweet time?
I made changes to my initial plans of changing jobs so I could make it for the trip.

I was so excited, so enthusiastic, just like you guys were perhaps.
But now, the chances of the trip happening are so slim.
That I can’t seem to feel excited anymore.

Seriously.

Fuck all this shit, yeah seriously.

Why must Virgos all be so analytical? I know they are perfectionists, but don’t expect the same for love. Don’t expect the relationship you’re contemplating to get in to be ever smooth-sailing, because it never will be. It won’t be love if you don’t meet with any obstacles throughout the process at all.

I finally found out what was going on in your mind, that 1 or 2 years back. Initially I found it all to be ridiculous factors…but after much thinking, it’s all in the characteristics. Nobody to blame but myself.

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P.S.  Oh yeah, Twitter  = MSN. Please talk privately because you might just be pissing someone else off with your publicized conversation. Thanks a lot.

My next post(s) will be on the trip to Thailand. Stay tuned (if there are any lost souls still wandering around my blog) !

My blog is unsafe

Yes, it is. For me.

I’ve a stalker who stalks my blog, and lets another girl know about it. No idea about his intentions but, his actions make me despise him a lot, though we have never exchanged words and it isn’t right to be judgemental. But know what? Fuck you and I don’t give a fucking damn. You might be reading this blog of mine now and if you think that guy I’m referring to is you, then it is. Fuckin coward. What you tryna prove by showing that particular blog post? Sow discord? Go suck some dicks man.

 

Hint:  He’s got a rather big head, and probably has no dickhead. _|_

I’m surprised we’ve come so far

Wow, been 342903823124329 years since I logged into WordPress. Lots of cobwebs covering my blog. Who’s still reading? Or still knows of this blog’s existence? I don’t know.

Ahh, recent updates. YOG duties are officially over. 5 days passed like in the blink of an eye. I remember how I got lost on my first day of duty and I met a few new friends over there. Damn slack, I must say. Eat Sleep Play Monopoly Deal. That’s my job scope. Hahaha.

I watched Step Up in 3D! DOPE movie, AWESOME dance moves and WOW visual effects!
You won’t regret watching it a second time, kill yourself if you miss this movie!
Okay maybe not so serious to that extent.

Oh yeah btw, I haven’t watch Inception. SIGH whole world watch already lah how!?!

I had a major quarrel with my parents over this past 2 days over some hp bill shit.
I dont like it when they jump to conclusions without getting to the bottom of things.
That’s what PISSING me off.
The best thing is, my dad started off  my day by kicking up another big fuss this morning. (or yesterday since it’s past 12am)
Half of my hp bills are caused by the ridiculous 78855 msgs they sent me. Like wow, thanks alot.
You just FUCKED MY LIFE.

It’s a vicious cycle.
I like you. You like him. He likes her.
Maybe it’s all in the characteristics of Pisces.
We are all hopeful people, we often pray for the most optimistic situation, thinking it will turn out that way but no, reality is hell more cruel that what we think it is.
Yes, I thought my actions meant something/had a lil impact, don’t think that’s e case right now.

I’m feeling so down.
Needs someone I am comfortable with to pour out to.
I hate that ‘can’t-be-bothered’ feeling/impression you give.

Chinese New Year Mood?

Seriously, the recent tests and project submissions kinda took away the CNY mood this year.
But I’m still looking forward to going back to Malaysia cos life in SG is just so stressful, it’d be good to leave the country and take a break.

When we all return after the CNY break, exams are just round the corner already. See how fucked up the schedule is? And there’s no holidays for us due to the ITP. But I think I’m fortunate enough to get a lucky slot.

Nothing stays the same, people do change. So what can I do about it? It has happened and I can only accept it.

Fuck.My.Life

It seems like this year won’t be a good one, at least until today.
I lost my wallet yesterday after I played basketball.
This same scenario happened in SP when I was year one, similarly, after basketball.
Though I may not have lost my handphone together with my wallet this time round( which is a good thing ), I felt that the loss was equivalent to the first one.
Why?

1) Because this will be the 2nd time i lose my IC, and it’s gonna be a fucking 300bucks gone from my pay.
Cheesepie, three mother fucking hundred dollars. Almost half of my tak-home pay for December, i worked so frequently during the holidays to earn myself enough to buy an iTouch and now this has to happen.

2) My Provisional Driving License is also inside the wallet. And I have to make my way down to Traffic Police Headquarters to notify them and renew one. In addition, TP is in March and now this loss will affect my learning progress. Fuckkkk.

3) My house keys are inside the wallet. A lot of people asked why I put them inside. Because it’s just two keys and more convenient to put in. Yeah, convenient indeed. I’m not gonna put them in my wallet anymore. Now have to change the lock in my house.

4) Atm card. I’m not really sure how much it will cost me to replace a new card yet again. They say will deduct from my bank account, but I only have $6 inside! Deduct what shit? :/

I swear to myself,

I’m not gonna bring my whole wallet out when I’m gonna play basketball. Just cash and ezlink.
I’m not bringing my IC out with me unless necessary.
I’m not putting any keys in my wallet anymore.

I just hope a good Samaritan whom may be holding on to my wallet to return me my IC and PDL…
Which is highly impossible, I know.

I’m so guilty, my parents have warned me not to bring my IC out after I lost my handphone and wallet in school, now I’m making the same mistake. But this time round, I will bear the full responsibility instead of asking my Dad to.

In conclusion, FML.
What a way to start off my new year.