Voice out

I can’t take it anymore.

Even I can’t take it lying down anymore. The more I think, the more I feel fed up.

Turning to friends only when your partner isn’t by your side or not on talking terms? And once it’s all back to normal or your desired life, totally no contact at all. Maybe once or twice, you can be forgiven. BUT, once it becomes a habit, that’s it. That’s not the way to treat your friends or maintaining a friendship. You don’t just dump us aside when you don’t need us at the moment. I’m getting sick of such treatments too, we are humans not your back-up plan.

Sorry, but this is exactly how I’m/we’re feeling.

If you can’t strike a balance between relationship and friendship, learn it the hard way then.
Just note that, not every time when you need friends by your side, they will still be there for you. Humans all want to feel important.

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你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为 只是我以为

我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁

我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

Now I’m lost.

Chosen

I’ll walk till the end.
Though I may not be the best choice, But I’ll try.
Falling deep.

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Seriously.

Fuck all this shit, yeah seriously.

Why must Virgos all be so analytical? I know they are perfectionists, but don’t expect the same for love. Don’t expect the relationship you’re contemplating to get in to be ever smooth-sailing, because it never will be. It won’t be love if you don’t meet with any obstacles throughout the process at all.

I finally found out what was going on in your mind, that 1 or 2 years back. Initially I found it all to be ridiculous factors…but after much thinking, it’s all in the characteristics. Nobody to blame but myself.

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P.S.  Oh yeah, Twitter  = MSN. Please talk privately because you might just be pissing someone else off with your publicized conversation. Thanks a lot.

My next post(s) will be on the trip to Thailand. Stay tuned (if there are any lost souls still wandering around my blog) !

Unpredictable

Why are things the way they are now?
I tried to be accomodating, and communicate with you.
Even though it’s not always easy to reach you, I wait patiently.
It’s not just a “Sorry” that I want to hear everytime.
This word, loses it’s meaning, when said too many times.
There are alot of things I want to get across to you, but knowing you’d probably get pissed off and rebutt and leading to a quarrel, I held back everytime.

I guess, I failed to make it into your life and I thought I did.

I’m surprised we’ve come so far

Wow, been 342903823124329 years since I logged into WordPress. Lots of cobwebs covering my blog. Who’s still reading? Or still knows of this blog’s existence? I don’t know.

Ahh, recent updates. YOG duties are officially over. 5 days passed like in the blink of an eye. I remember how I got lost on my first day of duty and I met a few new friends over there. Damn slack, I must say. Eat Sleep Play Monopoly Deal. That’s my job scope. Hahaha.

I watched Step Up in 3D! DOPE movie, AWESOME dance moves and WOW visual effects!
You won’t regret watching it a second time, kill yourself if you miss this movie!
Okay maybe not so serious to that extent.

Oh yeah btw, I haven’t watch Inception. SIGH whole world watch already lah how!?!

I had a major quarrel with my parents over this past 2 days over some hp bill shit.
I dont like it when they jump to conclusions without getting to the bottom of things.
That’s what PISSING me off.
The best thing is, my dad started off  my day by kicking up another big fuss this morning. (or yesterday since it’s past 12am)
Half of my hp bills are caused by the ridiculous 78855 msgs they sent me. Like wow, thanks alot.
You just FUCKED MY LIFE.

It’s a vicious cycle.
I like you. You like him. He likes her.
Maybe it’s all in the characteristics of Pisces.
We are all hopeful people, we often pray for the most optimistic situation, thinking it will turn out that way but no, reality is hell more cruel that what we think it is.
Yes, I thought my actions meant something/had a lil impact, don’t think that’s e case right now.

I’m feeling so down.
Needs someone I am comfortable with to pour out to.
I hate that ‘can’t-be-bothered’ feeling/impression you give.

End of ITP

First day of ITP: Counting down the number of days left till end of ITP, hoping it will pass quickly.
Last day of ITP: Thinking why did ITP end so fast, wishing it would last a bit longer.

In the blink of an eye, 6 weeks have passed. Attachment is over. I had mixed feelings inside me, i didn’t know whether to feel happy or sad. But when we all had to bid goodbye, i realised i was feeling more sad rather than happy. It might not be the case for all my friends who are also having their ITP, but my fellow interns will definitely feel the same way as me.

I feel quite lucky that I got into this company with a good pay, excellent welfare, caring boss, thoughtful supervisor and awesome colleagues. Seriously no complains about this company.
I definitely will miss the colleagues and the workplace!
And all the fun times like singing K through the night and steamboat outing!

Back to school on Monday, mixed feelings again!

Tired, mentally, physically and emotionally.

Same words we both said, they had different effects and got different responses.

I suddenly have a strong urge to leave this place and be alone.